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Most Normal Girl

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Feeling Funny...

I had to go to the doctor last week for a special test. I hate special tests; especially the kind that don't make you feel so special.

The results came back today and it wasn't the best news. I heard words, but could barely assemble meaning: Abnormal cells. Severe. Remove tissue. Surgery required. Two-hours. Someone to drive. Recheck again in a month. Children...

I'm feeling emotional but also at a loss for words and understanding. I know this has to be done. I know that there is a 90%+ success rate that everything will get better. I know I have to think positive. I know, I know, I know - but, but, but...!!!

Need good vibes. A bottle of wine and cheery flowers would help, too.
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Thursday, June 11, 2009

Professional Refresh

I'm at a regional conference that happens this year - every year. I LOVE COMING TO THIS as it is a way to reconnect to friends, colleagues, and others in my education industry. Not only do we all get updates about what's happening, but we get a chance to connect AND be silly (as us nerds love to do). Today was a great day - I learned about an economic forecast for the future of Higher Education, got a chance to talk with old friends, took the opportunity to network with good people, eat decent food, and do all those other conference "things" that we're not supposed to talk about. Good, good, good.

More than ever, I needed this to re-focus my passion towards my career. Sometimes life gets hectic and we forget why it is we do what we do (those long days can take their toll). But this was the boost that I was hoping to find... And it's all good...

I hope to share more later.
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Sunday, June 07, 2009

June Gloom

June, in So. Cal., seems to always attract the marine layer (otherwise known as low clouds and fog). This year is no exception. In fact, this past week has brought a fair share of rain. It's not exactly cold but not exactly the warm welcome to Summer that you would expect for the month of June. Instead of cute dresses, I've been wearing jeans. Yesterday, at Blair's baseball game, the fans were cuddled under blankets - well, except that one girl who showed up in shorts and flip-flops; I guess she didn't get the weather memo.

June also seems to bring all the single-people to the surface. I have a few good friends who are on emotional roller coaster rides -- and everyone who is in the way gets steam-rolled! You see, the joys of a Spring Fling are short-lived when Summer approaches... And WOW, the devastation! As much as I try to remember those feelings of heartache, disappointment, loneliness, and emptiness, I WISH these friends would GROW from each experience. I feel like shouting "YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN THIS COMING! THIS HAPPENED LAST TIME! S/HE IS JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!" Instead, I hold my tongue and lend a shoulder to cry on. I think there may be some resentment or jealousy toward other people who have found good relationships. Self-worth always becomes an issue in these conversations. ...UGH... I am trying to be sensitive.

And what's with all the dead bees? Has anyone else noticed the dead bees that seem to be piling up on the sidewalks? This past week, I counted no less than 10 bees who keeled over and died right there on the pavement. So sad! Poor bees! Is there something going on? Or is it that I'm just more aware of them, now that I've seen a few? In any case, it's weird...
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